Loving Lydia

Flower for Mommy

Gross

After preschool today I picked up Lydia. She usually wants to rush right in and see her Perry and get into some sort of activity...but today was different. "Mommy can we talk here in the van?" I let her out of the carseat and she sat next to me in our driveway. "Mommy kissing is gross." Okay? Why do you think that? You kiss mommy and daddy. "Yeah...but kissing boys is gross." You kiss daddy and he's a boy, is that gross? "No, that's different." Hmmmm...different than what? "Daniel is my boyfriend, and he's a boy and I kissed him." Oh you did!? "Yes, but teacher said we shouldn't kiss anymore." Oh... "Mommy, I liked kissing Daniel...is that okay?" Yes baby that's okay.

(Now daddy's opinion I'm sure that will be a totally different story.)

First Shift???

Keep your fingers crossed. There is a chance Russell will get to move to first shift for 8 weeks. First shift means we get to see daddy all summer everyday...not just weekends. What a great summer that would be!!

Lydia is sleeping...

...and I miss her.

A little bit of gorgeous for the day

Mother's Day 2009

Mother's Day 2009. Lydia started off my day right by greeting me first thing with a big "Happy Mother's Day!" I made me favourite breakfast of fried steak and gravy with scrambled eggs. Lydia got me a computer game (seek and find--I am a total addict!) and some flowers. Plus I got a homemade card and a beautiful card from my hubby. Russell cleaned the rat cage for me. (Probably the best gift anyone could have given me.) And we went to Shogun where we ate sushi and fried rice. Liddy loves her some sushi as does her mommy!

BTW--No, it's not a trick of the light. My hair is indeed purple.

Believing

Saturday night at 3 am we hear a blood curdling scream from Liddy's bedroom. Russell and I jump up and she's sitting in the middle of the floor wailing. Russell asks her what's wrong and she complains her blister on her foot hurts. Russ changes the bandage and gives her a tylenol and while he does she asks to sleep the rest of the night with mommy. He relents.

As we are in bed Lydia curls up next to me and says "Mommy I lied to daddy just now. I woke up and was playing on the floor when I heard a monster outside my window...but daddy says there are no monsters so I lied. Will you protect me from the monster mommy?" Forever baby...forever.

My little stagemanager

Hiatus

I usually in May spend a lot of time doing a celebration of Asian Pacific American Heritage Month. I had planned to do it this month as well....but without going into too much detail I don't really feel like celebrating too much right now.

A co-worker of mine's daughter is having a baby that she wishes to place for adoption. She has offered us the child. I have been wanting another baby for awhile. Russell doesn't think it's wise to adopt another child right now. I can't fault him. He's right...our finances are horrible. We are still deep in debt from his surgery, my killing our car, my education, my teeth (which aren't finished yet) and a whole bunch of other stuff that fell on our plates over the last 3-4 years. It makes absolutely no sense to bring another child into our family right now. But this isn't about sense...this is about the heart and right now my heart hurts.

If I get over my funk I'll begin posting again. Until then I'll occassionaly post a picture of Lydia to keep the folks happy but I'm just not feeling overly chatty right now.